my computer at work is going to die on me any minute now.. as you read this entry.. i would like you to know that it took me half an hour just to complete writing this (as the computer just hangs at certain words :P) and another fifteen minutes posting and publishing it..
incredible..
so you can imagine it takes me one minute to complete one entry at work so basically i am staring at the computer screen..hoping that it will go a little faster before i ZZzzz...

in order to make full use of my time, i decided to be more productive and make a list.. no no.. not a christmas list (since my friends have decided not to do any gift exchange thingies this year) but a pack-luggage-and-try-not-to-miss-anything list..
at least i am using my brain more than just staring at this silly screen and listening to the weird noises coming out of the cpu..

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hehe..yup you spotted me in JUICE mag *blush* was told about it by a friend (who is in the pic too) as his friend told him about the picture.. but the funny thing is that none of us have got to see it yet! ahahaha.. hope it turned out ok *fingers crossed* it was a seb fontaine nite and i had quite a good time {archive 11/05/02}
think you would have really enjoyed him spin ;)

after getting myself breakfast, i went to get a weekly magazine at the magazine outlet located at exnxs mrt station (name withheld to 'protect' vendor)
i promptly picked up the magazine of my choice and handed over two dollars worth of coins to the woman.. to my shock and horror she gave a loud tsk
i was still trying to be polite and asked her if the amount was correct.. she did not even respond to my question and just started throwing the coins into her coin holders.. thinking that she is done counting, i started to walk off and to my (another) shock and horror, she said 'wait, till i finish counting!'
*jaws drop*
my first thought was to say 'hello aunty, if you dont want to sell please return me my money! yes coins are money too! i can always get the same thing somewhere else!'
sensing my pissed off-ness, she then quickly said 'ok ok'

*grr*

will remembernever to go back there to get magazines.. ever

and so she realised the awful truth, the nagging thought in her head
was right all this while
'you cant please everyone' so it says ..and its right
everyone has their own taste and preference, likes and dislikes,
wants and needs..
all you can alter is the environment and surroundings ..once in a while
thats why not everyone will be happy at the same time..
its because you can never change them.
i think its time to stop trying and start doing and saying
the things you really want to..though the truth may be harsh at times...
sugar coat it if you must... but never hide it
stop trying to be a pleaser..
at the end of the day, you may get lucky once or twice..
seeing a smile on everyones face at the same time..
but its just like having a fluke shot getting the ball into the hoop
from one end of the court to the other

is all you are doing worth it?
is all you are doing working?
will all that you do make a difference?
will all that you do change ignorance

be nice but not all the time
only when its worth it

and so she pondered..